Once again, today's a Sunday... =)
To me, a Sunday is not a Sunday if i'm not reading the Sunday's papers.... yes, i'm addicted to the Sunday's papers....i can't live without it.
I feel my own self once again... =) the positive one of coz.
*winks*Oh yah, i wanna watch
'Charlie and the Chocolate Factory'!!!!!!! Think of Mr. Willy Wonka, the owner of the chocolate factory, heh, heh, heh! it's gonna be out in the cinemas soon...somewhere around mid-August....can't wait to watch this chocolatey movie man! And of coz...i love this story as well...for those of u who have read the book written by
Roald Dahl....it's fantabulous, isn't it? I used to read Roald Dahl's stories when i was young, still love his stories until today. =) I love Roald Dahl's stories.....one word for his stories -
AWESOME.
*claps hands*Yeaps, one more thing....i'm currenly addicted to
Marion Raven's new album - Here I Am. It's beautiful. Go listen to it. I'm in love with her songs man....hehe. Have the whole album here with me...downloaded it of coz. (no money to buy her album lar)
Just took a quick shower....and guys, trust me...a hot shower can do wonders to a person. I'm WIDE AWAKE rite now...!
*bares her teeth and smile like nobody's business*I'm still not yet done with negligence. Oh gosh... well....hmm....the definition of negligence is this : "You must take reasonable care to avoid acts or omissions which you can reasonably foresee would be likely to injure your neighbour per Lord Atkin in Donoghue v. Stevenson".
Hurray!!*dancing around in her room*Mr. Paul has finished teaching us law of tort. Law of tort covers quite a number of things : negligence, nuisance, trespass, occupiers' liability, employers' liability which includes vicarious liability, the rule in Rylands v. Fletcher, and of coz the various defences and remedies in tort. The end. A lot isn't it? Well, there's more to revise when it comes to contract law. Oh no... now i find that contract law is MUCH TOUGHER than law of tort...i dunno why. It's just my own assumption perhaps? But trust me, contract law IS the toughest.
As for my lovely economics, Mr. Adrian finished our A2 syllabus 2 weeks ago... now he's revising with us in class every week. Discussing past year papers and stuff. Asked us questions...blah blah blah... A very tedious thing to do thru every week. But what the heck, life's like this man...
*trying hard not to complain about anything today*Errrr..... sociology.... still doing Crime and Deviance. It's amazing to know from the functionalist point of view that a crime is useful to the society as a whole. The functionalists think that with crimes every now and then, the society will be able to integrate together as a whole and prevent further crimes from happening... ppl will get together to form anti-crime groups...and by doing so, the society will achieve social order and social solidarity again. Interesting eh?
For A2 sociology, we're doing Religion, Families and Households, Education, and Crime and Deviance. Well... during the A2 exam, we're supposed to answer only 3 questions....which is why we're learning 4 topics and that 1 extra topic is for our backup JUST IN CASE anything happens during the very last minute. Well... most probably, i will leave the Crime and Deviance topic to be my backup topic. I will concentrate on Religion, Families and Households, and Education. Gotta know these 3 topics like the back of my hand.
Been sleeping ultra late for the past 2 nights.... i wonder when can i only achieve my sleep-early-and-wake-up-early aim... hmm. Or maybe i should change my aim to sleep-late-but-wake-up-early aim ? coz time is too precious rite now... can't imagine i'll be having my A2 trials soon........oh me god.
gee...seems like i'm starting to worry again. No no no.... i'm trying to look on the brighter side of life now...although i'm still freaking myself out by the thought of my AS results which are gonna be out very very soon.
*stares onto the ceiling*k lar... i think i crapped too much in this blog.... it's unhealthy... i should hit my books rite now... Gonna study negligence again.... and hopefully got time to study econs later at night.
toodles!
For the first time in my life....i din go to class for the lamest excuse in the world -> I couldn't wake up in the morning!!!! Damn it...damn it...damn it...
The aftermath of this event is that now i'm feeling oh-so-guilty rite now... Actually going for econs class is nothing...Mr. Adrian would just discuss the past year questions with us during class, that's all. Nothing much in fact. But the problem is this... why the hell am i feeling so freaking guilty rite now just becoz i skipped class for the 1st time in my college life? I'm feel like i'm such a geek...or even a nerd perhaps. Damn...
*brainwashing herself to NOT feel guilty about skipping class*The class wasn't THAT early this morning..it started at 10am...and still!! i couldn't wake up!! What's the heck? What's wrong with miss Yina?
*a long long sigh* (sorry, but i seriously need to sigh.)
Since i woke up so late, i need to make FULL AND GOOD use of the whole day today. It's a wednesday after all. Two more days to Friday. Hmm. Gonna buy TheStar papers and my lunch now... and plan to mug my brains off for the rest of the day. I'm so damn pissed by myself.. Hmph! WhyOhWhyOhWhyOhWhy....
The connection sucks again. I tried sending 2 'hi....' msgs to my baby but i guess he din receive it coz no reply from him. Ah well... seems like everything is not so right nowadays...damn inti...damn connection.
*starting to whine like a mad cow again*Till then, i think i better get my ass off this chair before it gets too dark. I NEED to MUG! i have to..and i must. Sigh, i'm still pissed by myself...for not being able to go for econs class...DAMN.
P.S.: Sorry Mr. Adrian!
Not been feeling like my normal self lately...or is this my normal self? Hmm.....i dunno. Been sighing more than usual... Well, all i can say is...this is the way of life. There's ups...and now...there's the downside of it.
Don't wanna sound too depressed here in my blog as i'm already quite depressed deep down inside my heart. I hate to make things worse. So yeah, i better stop whining and complaining and shut my mouth up. Just leave the worrying part for me. Yes...
Guess the only thing i can TRY to prevent myself from worrying is to bury my head into the big pile of textbooks i have here in my room. But sometimes, the more i mug, the more i tend to worry. Yikes. Okay, i know i shouldn't sound too negative...but what the heck... i CAN be very negative when it comes to things like this. It's just....well... INEVITABLE.
*shakes own head vigorously*I know.... some might think that i'm bringing this upon myself... I'm just being myself...so i know what i'm doing. Damn... i just hate this part of me... y can't i be more mature and handle things in a more matured manner? Guess i have yet to grow up..... sigh sigh sigh. Man.... life sucks!
*stones in front of the monitor*Just give me some time... i'll be back to my normal self once again. Yeah, i will. So for the time being, guess i just need to be alone. Away from all the distractions. Away from the world... yet...i can't be away from my books. T_T Anyhow, this sounds like a person in denial, isn't it? I really hope not....i hope i'm not escaping myself from reality or even making excuses to escape reality... a bigger SIGH once again...
*finding ways to sigh less*Anyways. Saying a prayer does help during times like these. Thank God for being there. Been listening to this song over and over again... it's VERY meaningful... to me at least. The lyrics kinda reflect what i'm going through rite now... or well... maybe part of it.
The Prayer by Josh Groban
I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che to dai (The light that you give us)
I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore resterò (Will stay in our hearts)
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarchi che (Reminding us)
When stars go out each night
L'eterna stella sei (That in my prayer)
Nella mia preghiera (You are an everlasting star)
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c'è (There's so much faith)
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe.
Sognamo un mondo senza più violenza (We dream of world with no more violence)
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza ( A world of justice and hope)
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino (Grasp your neighbors hand)
Simbolo di pace e di fraternità (As a symbol of peace and brotherhood.)
La forza che ci dai (The strength that you give us)
We ask that life be kindE'il desiderio che (Is the wish)
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore (That everyone may find love)
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a sé (In and around himself)
Another soul to love
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe...
Yeah...i seriously wanna feel safe....but there's just things for me to worry about all the time. Why is this happening to me? Ah well... i really need to cool down and be alone rite now... if not i think i'm really gonna go bonkers...for real.
*touch wood touch wood*Till then, pray hard that the next entry of mine will be on a happier note. God bless me.
*feeling sad and gloomy despite the hot scorching sun shining brightly outside*
Howdy... it's Friday once again. Time flies. Too fast in fact. Hmm... Wonder whether it's a good or bad thing that time passes by THAT fast nowadays... Is is because we're too busy or too engrossed with our own work? Or simply because we're too free and easy by bumming around and daydreaming all the time? I dunno.... i really dunno. Really hope to find the right answer though...
*deep in thought*Ah well... tomorrow's Saturday. Din mug at all today. Damn. Just din feel like mugging at all. No feeling to mug at all. Yeah..it's hard to imagine but that's what i've been feeling today. The mood isn't right. The momentum isn't there. The atmosphere is not there. Tell me guys, how to mug?!!
*scratches head*The
M'sia Mega Sales Carnival will be starting tomorrow. And i'm too guilty to go shopping nowadays. OH GREAT. Was reading CLEO mag just now and i've LOTSA things in mind that i wanna buy...heeheehee. I just couldn't resist it... well... actually it isn't A LOT of things lar...just well....namely a FEW things..... :
- A pair of branded slippers from Brazil. (forgot the name already but i know that i can get it from Studio R or any Royal Sporting House outlets)
- The latest version of Maybelline's Water Shine Lip Gloss. ( i want Clearly Clear)
- Hair braider!!!! (yes...i've been eyeing for one since a looooooooong time ago....)
- Leave-in hair conditioner or hair moisturizer. Even better, i want a hair serum thingy that can prevent split ends and strengthen my hair.
- A beautiful charm bracelet. ( i just need it, dun ask why)
- A nice and tastefully-designed anklet. (I lost mine since a loooooong time ago)
- A new hairstyle perhaps? (but first of all, i gotta convince myself to do so)
- A pair of beautiful bohemian/ethnic/indian-style of flip flops. ( if possible, i want a pair from Pretty Fit)
- A bikini bra. ( i won't dare to wear just that piece of cloth on the outside only, don't worry)
- And lastly, LOTSA LOTSA NICE clothes. ( i'm never satisfied, now and always)
That isn't A LOT rite? =P I just need LOTSA Vitamin M ....... Mmmmmmmm.......That will do the trick. Heh.
God.....but when can i only step into a reasonably good shopping mall again? Actually i've made this tiny little promise to myself that i WOULD NOT shop until my A2 exams are over coz i've spent quite a lot for my prom. I'm trying REAL HARD to not think about shopping.... but then again, thinking isn't gonna do any harm to me rite?
*evil grins*
Tomorrow WILL be a productive day for me. Coz i'm gonna MUG. Yeah....when it comes to mugging, i will be excited like HELL. * i'm so damn rite * Mug, mug, mug....that's all i gotta do for tomorrow. NOTHING ELSE.
I need to taste life once again. Just bring me to any shopping malls!!!!!!!! ARRRGGGGGHHHH!! I just can't bear the thought that the mega sales is starting tomorrow.......damn.
MUG=STUDY=READ=PIA=BACAMuggles (non-magical creatures, this is harry potter talk), are meant to MUG. And yeah, i'm classified under the 'muggles' category coz i don't possess any magical skills that can transform an ugly toad into a charming prince. But
IF i mug
REAL REAL REAL hard, i
MIGHT be able to put down all the hardcore facts that i've learnt and understood onto the written exam papers itself during the real exam later. Sounds wonderful, isn't it?
I'm curious and eager to find out who's the half-blood prince in the latest harry potter book. Many people must have already finished reading the 600++ pages. And i have yet to feel the cover of the book. How pathetic, isn't it? Damn. Life isn't interesting when you can't get what you want... i want to read 'Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince'!!!!!
Guess when it's time for me to indulge in the latest harry potter book, most probably i'll be the last person on earth to read it. Trust me. I have a very strong feeling that i'll be the last person on earth to read the latest harry potter book. Perhaps J.K.Rowling should give me an award for being the last person on earth to read it? Yeah....sounds like a good idea though. ARGH.....A-levels..... becoz of A-levels...i'm putting a stop to SOOOO many things in life..... whyohwhyohwhyohwhy......
i better don't start complaining here....or maybe i did start to complain already. Anyhow...i've finally got
my new mattress from the accommodation office. Yeah...after 2 months. Inti Management is SO DAMN FREAKING 'efficient' in this sense....shoot me...i AM getting sarcastic nowadays...but anyways, i'm finally able to sleep in peace on my BRAND NEW mattress...yeah..
BRAND NEW one although it's brandless....bleh...
Been indulging into
Mozart's classical pieces nowadays while mugging... It's truly an indulgence man...=) Chose to listen to Mozart coz it was proven that those who always listen to Mozart will become smarter and perform better than the rest...heehee. So hopefully Mozart will be helpful to me....helpful as in helpful in my studies so that i can achieve outstanding grades. Hee.
By now, i guess kay yin must be happily enjoying life at home in JB now. She has completed her foundation studies already...waiting to fly to NY next month. I do envy her....crazily smart girl. Guess it's time for me to spend quality time with her during my semester break next month.... and hopefully i'll have the mood to do so coz my AS results will be released next month too....GAWD. August 2005 will be one hell of a month...gonna be an ultra happening month indeed since i have to face the music, mug and spend time with friends and family...and of coz not forgetting my darling. 3 weeks to do so many things. Time is always my enemy. Boohoo.
If i can have
one wish rite now...i wish i will score all As in my AS exam so that i can have an easier time preparing for my coming A2 exams. Just this one wish.....i hope some
fairies out there can hear me....so that my wish can be granted......
*staring into the sky and hoping to catch a shooting star so that her wish can be granted*
THE POTTERMANIA BEGINS...Yup, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince is finally here!! Man...i can't wait to lay my hands on the latest HP book!!! It's at home!! But then again, i won't be having the time to read it...time is too precious for me now... Some more i have yet to read
'The Undomestic Goddess' by Sophie Kinsella.... NO TIME AGAIN? Yes people,
NO TIME!! ARGHHH..... my mum even told me to focus on my studies, i can only touch those 2 books later after my A-levels. Now, i'm banned from reading storybooks...hmph!
My hands are itching to have a feel of the latest Harry Potter book.... if only i could go back home..... well...too bad.... i'm STUCK here... damn.
3 more weeks....just 3 more weeks then i can go back home. Still, i think it's quite long. Sane people like me would find inti sucks all the time, believe me. If only i'm something like Harry Potter...then i can attend Hogwarts...the school of witchcraft and wizardry. Not some bloody freaking place like inti.... guess i was conned into entering inti, and since they offered this merit scholarship to me, i have no choice but to come here coz my parents just don't want me to go to KL, it's too dangerous there, according to them. Well... my fate... my luck...
Sometimes i wonder why am i always whining about this and that....i don't seem to be satisfied with everything around me. Hmm... i used to be a person that is easily contented with everything, but just look at me now...look at me... i guess i've changed... i'm always expecting the best....not the worse... and when my expectations get too high, great disappointment will come in. I dunno what i'm trying to say here though...
i'm getting sick of everything around me... lectures are way too boring... and all i can do is to
MUG,MUG and MUG. Oh why... are all A-level students around the world is facing this kinda situation like me as well? Sigh. Sometimes i really think i needed a break....or just break away from the reality and just fly to some faraway land (e.g. the Neverland). How nice if i'm living in a fantasy world....or a magical world like Harry Potter...how nice..how nice...IF ONLY..........
Guess now i know why they say that A-level is one of the toughest exams worldwide. Now i can understand the meaning of that statement. A-level IS one hell of an exam....stressful....no joke. Wonder what's next for me after A-levels.... Law? Mass Communications? er.... double degrees? I really dunno... should i go for something less stressful? guess i'll be needing an answer for this soon....
Many things happened lately. Both good and the not-so-good things. Hmm...i dunno how to start blogging here...am currently in the library now using the computers over here...just had lunch at the side-walk cafe...it sucks all the time. Got classes from 2pm till 6pm later. Damn. I hate attending lectures nowadays....it's simply TOO boring already. =(
Kinda warm now over here coz i'm FORCED to wear my sweater just becoz there's this library rule that says : "You can't enter into the library if you're wearing sleeveless tops." Bravo. What stupid library rule is this man. This place is just oh-so-lame. Damn.
Guess i shouldn't sound too annoyed... well...on a brighter side, i managed to go back home last friday...had a wonderful and great weekend. Ahhh.... Had lunch at lavender bistro with shen jean and then we proceeded to Secret Recipe for some mouth-watering cheese cakes...yum yum! Well, our intention is to post-celebrate MY birthday and pre-celebrate HER birthday. How cute! hehe. Then last friday nite, dad, jen and me went to the airport to pick my sis up. She went to US for one year and finally she's back safely. Was excited to see her after more than a year. But then again, i was sooo jealous of her becoz she bought soooo many nice stuff for herself!! Man. And i was trying out every single clothing she bought. Haha. Too jealous already...since i can't own it, i might as well try it first rite? Heeheehee... I simply LOVE her new blue sweater from Roxy. DAMN damn nice! Was literally drooling at it. Just TOO bad it isn't mine. Bleh.... and some more she bought this pair of REALLY NICE black pointed heels.... damn classic...damn elegant.....ohmygod.....i was speechless and breathless when i saw the killer heels....
*drools*K, enough of my jealousy here. Coming back to reality, i've got to know (just yesterday) that the A-levels results (AS and A2) will be released on the.... 8th of August!! ( SO EARLY?!?! WHAT THE HECK?) Yeah peeps, it's already confirmed coz the notice was on the A-levels board in front of the pre-U office here in Inti. I simply just couldn't believe my eyes and ears. I wish i was dreaming but i wasn't. Boohoo. I expected it to come out somewhere during mid-August but heck, it's on the 8th of august (monday)!! I'll be going back for my semester break on the 5th of August (friday) and there's no time for me to enjoy first before i face the music! Damn! WhyOhWhyOhWhyOhWhyOhWhy......
*chanting away...*Well, actually i DO have 2 days ( which is 6th and the 7th of aug) to enjoy first before i face the music rite? Hmm....i shall see what i can do during those two days...but most probably i'll be worrying like nuts...thinking about all kinds of possible negative outcomes...and worrying myself to.....well.... death (literally).
I can't enjoy my semester break like normal IF my grades are terrible that is. CHOY. I wouldn't want this to happen to me. *
keeping my fingers crossed* So to all religious people out there, if u happen to stumble upon this blog, please..please...please...PRAY for me.... the power of prayer does help if there's a group praying for you...that's why praying during mass in church is totally different from praying silently alone in your room. The power of numbers. It helps. Really. But don't fret, i'll be praying for myself too for sure...Hee.
I'm having mixed feelings rite now....since yesterday in fact. I'm so looking forward to the month of August coz i'll be having a 3-week semester break....and at the same time i'm so NOT looking-forward to it becoz of the release of my AS results. I know it's no big deal to some people...they might say
:"Oh well, it's just AS results la....cool down man" . But hey, to me, it IS a big deal...and i know i'm silly to fuss over it and worrying like hell out of nothing...yeah..stupid me... i'm paranoid... i'm just being myself here.... this is just so 'yina'.
Lecturers are rushing to finish the syllabus before 5th of August... we, the poor students have to read like hell for all the topics...and try our best to cover as many things as possible after a day's lectures... this is my life.... my oh-so-pathetic life...... i wonder is there any other alternatives to this? I wonder...i really wonder....
I'm scared....i'm afraid...i'm frightened....Guess it's time to find some inner peace within myself...it's time...it's time.....
Arggghhh..... been having headaches recently. I dunno why. This place gives me lots of headaches........... wanted to blog now...but since i've got a headache now....guess will blog tomorrow..... till then, pray for me so that my headache will be gone by tomorrow.....
This morning at 8.15am (not exactly sharp though), AK352 brought me back to JB in one piece...=) and yeah...in other words, i wanna tell the whole world that i'm in JB rite now....=P i know that's lame...but what the heck rite...this is MY BLOG mind you....haha.
arggghhh.....no time to continue blogging now coz my dad just came home and we have to go and pick our sis up from changi airport!!! can't believe she's back tonite....haha! anyway...will be sleeping with her in the same room from today onwards....hehe...i wonder how it feels like...=P
tata! =)
Ahhhhhhhhh......quite an eventful day today although it was just a pretty normal day. Woke up by my mum this morning. Answered her call...the first thing she said to me was :
"Yina, Happy Birthday." I was :
"Huh? Ohh..." Can't blame me either, i was still in Lala Land. To cut the story short, i was still blur when my mum wished me this morning. It was 8 sharp in the morning, mind you. Some more i slept late last nite. And yeah, reality is always cruel. I was facing the harsh real world this morning when all the people in the world wished me. Dang...... I'm officially 19 years old from today onwards!!! In other words, it's my last year to well...officially 'act' as a teenager. =P I guess reality hurts coz all of us can't always remain at the age of 18...so yeah..just TOO bad.
Although there's no celebration or no birthday bash or no birthday surprises done by my college mates over here in Inti, nevertheless, i still feel special today..just simply becoz it's my birthday! =P Another reason for me to feel special is because i've received many many birthday wishes from my friends.
*smiles widely, showing some teeth* The many many birthday wishes are in different forms : friendster testimonials, friendster message, sms, call. Both of parents called me today. Dad called me later in the afternoon while i was sleeping. Funny, i couldn't sleep well last nite and this morning and this afternoon was becoz of all the smses and phone call. =P
It's good to know that my friends still remember my birthday although i was quite surprised by the fact that some of them can still remember my birthday coz i don't really can remember some of their birthdays. Oops. =P With all the birthday wishes i've got from my beloved friends this year, i hope that all of the birthday wishes can come true though...hehehe. The power of wishing.
*winks*I'm so looking forward to going home on this Friday. Looking forward to having a nice dinner with my family. =D I'm so missing them rite now. Aww. Mummy is just so sweet, she bought the book that i've wanted :
The Undomestic Goddess by Sophie Kinsella. Oooo La La! =) Fantastic, isn't it?
*grins like a small little girl* It's time for me to go back to reality rite now...time to hit the books.... -_- Family and Households....
* not again...* Before i end here, i would like to express a big
THANK YOU to all of you who have wished me today.....thanks people!! Love you guys!
P.S. By the way, i'm wondering though....where's all my prezzies? =P
Life has been pretty hectic recently…The highlight was the Inti Ball 2005 which was supposedly the annual prom event of Inti College. Man…I took so much trouble to style my hair, make-up and all…And yet the Inti Ball turned out to be less-than-average standard of a ‘good’ prom nite. Although it was held at the famous J.W Marriott Hotel in Putrajaya(5-star standard, mind you), the whole event wasn’t even half of the 5-star standard. It totally din rhyme at all. And yeah…it WAS a let-down for most of us. Enough said.
Well, thanks to huey sin, she lent me her digicam…although her digicam was kinda out-dated…I still managed to take a couple of pics…will upload a few of them when I get back home this Friday. And yeah, talking about this Friday, I’m going back home! Alas!
Been having this terrible and gruesome headache since last week…ARGH!! Something’s wrong with my head *touch wood!*. Well, hope to get well by tomorrow…*keeping my fingers crossed as tightly as possible*
My sis is in deep shit…she lost her passport! My mum told me this afternoon. Actually there’s a short story behind it…it wasn’t her fault actually. Here it goes : She placed her passport and her money in her friend’s friend’s car( don’t ask why, plz ), unfortunately the car got stolen by some American bugger.( USA IS a dangerous place after all ) During this time, she was enjoying backpacking in L.A. She cannot rush back to Philadelphia coz she paid for the backpacking trip already and on top of that she has only a few dollars left with her! Her friend’s passport, which was also inside the car was lost as well. My sis will be going back to Philly tomorrow and hopefully she can go to the M’sian Embassy over in US to settle her problem and get an emergency passport ASAP. 4th of July is US Independence Day it seems…gee…hopefully she can get an emergency passport somehow…if not I really dunno when will she be coming back to M’sia. Becoz of this, my parents are worried like hell. My mum told me that all we can do now is to hope and pray for the best. I’ll definitely be praying for you, sis…I really hope u’ll be able to come back home this weekend. Everybody at home is so looking forward to seeing you this weekend, including our beloved Tiger. Heh.
Hmm…been thinking about a lot of things lately before I sleep at nite. I dunno why. Perhaps I’m suffering from temporary insomnia. Gee. It’s unhealthy I know but my mind just couldn’t shut off! I tried counting goats or lambs or cows or whatever u can think of but I just can’t clear my mind and sleep! God… And guess what, I’ve come to a conclusion. The conclusion is this : Miss Yina is starting to get paranoid and worrying like hell for the release of her AS results. Yeah peeps, it’s getting into me. I know this is so silly of me to be worrying for nothing but this is just so ME! Ohmyohmyohmy…
To me, the release of any official major exam results is more terrifying than sitting for the exam itself. I can’t afford to lose out. The last thing on earth I would wanna see is to disappoint myself. I know I shouldn’t set too high expectations but that’s just ME. I’m a sore loser, really. I wouldn’t wanna see myself being a loser, never… NEVER. I still remembered that I cried like hell when I got back home after receiving my PMR exam slip just because I din get an A for BM. Come to think of it, it’s just so stupid of me to be crying over that tiny thing. I expected myself to get an A for BM, that’s why. A lot of my friends got A for their BM… I was utterly disappointed with myself coz I couldn’t obtain an A for my BM during PMR. That one pathetic B in BM caused me to not being able to achieve straight As in PMR. I admit that I’m a sore loser once again.
Well, guess I’m feeling better now after pouring out some of my silly thoughts that prevent me from sleeping. But I guess I’ll still be having those worries until the Judgment Day itself. I know all I can do now is to just leave it in the hands of God but I’m just being myself, I can’t help worrying!! *smacks own forehead*
Guess I should just stop worrying for the time being and get back to my econs textbook rite now… hmm… yeah, the perfect way to stop worrying about all the things under the moon is to READ YOUR TEXTBOOKS. Hah, that’s easier said than done.
