A 'Bow Wow' YearIt's the Year of the Dog. Bow..bow wow...bow wow wow! =P Since it's the First Day of Chinese New Year today, i shall wish everyone a
very blessed and
prosperous Chinese New Year!!
GONG XI FA CAI!!It's that time of the year again to drink, eat, gamble, collect 'ang pows', and drink and eat. XD It's a vicious cycle. All you can do during CNY is to drink-eat-gamble-drink-eat-gamble. How sinful.
Haha.
Time for me to go make merry now. Once again,
GONG XI FA CAI!!p.s. : To my bestie who's now in Rochester, New York, GONG XI FA CAI kay yin!! Will keep some 'nian gao' and new year cookies for you!! Hehe.*CNY songs playing in the background*
Learning to let goI've come to know about one of the most important lessons in life. There are certain things in life that we have to learn to let go. The things include childhood dreams. Let me just tell you a little story about myself...
Since young (around primary school age), i had always wanted to become a lawyer. The legal profession has always been my first choice when it comes to ambitions. There were no specific or logical reasons of why would i wanna become a lawyer so badly when i was young. It's like a childhood dream. And yup, this dream has been haunting me since then. Well, maybe it's because of the many episodes of Ally Mcbeal, maybe it's due to the social expectations towards lawyers that one would gain social respect and good social status if one were to become a lawyer, maybe it's just a very strong childhood dream or ambition......
And today (this morning to be exact), I've learnt that some of our childhood dreams are not meant to be fulfilled, just as some things in life are best to be left behind. Things changed, people changed, so have I, so have my childhood dream. Actually i know what i really want for myself, just that my childhood dream is preventing me from achieving it. I can't let this childhood dream of mine to haunt me down anymore. It's time for me to let go of this childhood dream, it's time for me to pursue what i really want in life, it's time...
it's time...All this while, i guess i was holding on too tightly to this childhood dream of mine of becoming a lawyer. It was tough to let go of this dream/ambition of mine because I was so attached to it that it seems impossible for me to let go. Sometimes, i guess it's good to let go... And sometimes it's so hard to see what is in the other hand but i do believe in this one thing -- God will never take away something without giving you something better in its place. I believe God is still doing good to me as I've finally decided what i really want in life.
A BIG THANK YOU to
Miss Ong Kay Yin *muaccccksssss!! hugggggggssss!!* for making me to realize where my potential is.
*dun laugh kayyin* You're such a
rare friend to have. What a precious gem! And so, i shall proudly proclaim that nobody can understand me any better than how kayyin does. She understands me the most in this whole entire universe i must say. She understands me inside out. This paragraph is specially dedicated to you kay yin, i know you're reading this...
I LOVE YOU LOTS! If Cinderella's godmother were to grant me a wish, i would wish for an airticket to fly to New York to
give u a big GIGANTIC hug!! ;) Was extremely touched by your phone call last night. Missed talking to you like hell, that was why i was so hyper when we were talking for 2 hours non-stop over the phone.
*grins*Friends are like stars,
Not always seen,
But they're always there for you.
=)
Since i've come to a decision on what i really wanna pursue, I shall go all out for it. I shall make no rooms for regrets this time. All i need is His guidance and blessings plus loads of confidence in myself. I must tell myself : I CAN DO THIS!!!
Life is like a piano, what you get out of it, depends on how you play it!
Very true indeed... I shall live my life according to this quote from this moment onwards. ;)
I must be strong, no matter what happens.Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly
When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day
Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
You'll make it
You'll make it
Just don't go forsaking yourself
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you
When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within
Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
-The Voice Within by Christina AguileraThis song suits my current mood right now. I have to be strong, no matter what. I must be strong and hold on. This is life... and yup, it sucks.
P.S.: Thanks a lot Teck Jian for your touching email filled with encouragement, hope, and a whole lot of true meanings about life. I felt better after reading it. Truly touched by it. =)
*hugs*
GEISHA-ism.
Sometimes I guess it's nice to become a geisha. Heard that famous geishas earn BIG BUCKS (no? yes?). However, guess it's very tough to become or pretend to be a geisha. Emotions are to be controlled. Gotta be ultra gentle and feminine. Not all the female species on earth can do such things man. Definitely NOT my cup of tea. Anyways, i guess we'll be able to spot a
'geisha fashion' trend in no time where the japanese kimono will be the next 'in' thing.
Gosh, the movie-making industry is really a money-making machine man. This sentence kinda rhymes! Don't u think so? hehe.
The traditional geisha clad in japanese kimono.
Geisha are professional female entertainers who perform traditional Japanese arts at banquets. Girls who wish to become a geisha, have to go through a rigid apprenticeship during which they learn various traditional arts such as playing instruments, singing, dancing, but also conversation and other social skills. In Kyoto, geisha apprentices are called "maiko". Geisha are dressed in a kimono, and their faces are made up very pale. As a common tourist, you may be able to spot a maiko in some districts of Kyoto, such as Gion and Pontocho or in Kanazawa's Higashi Geisha District. -
this paragraph was taken from Google.com. 
I so wanna watch this movie.
Enough about geishas. Wonder what's wrong with me nowadays, keep on chanting the word 'geisha...geisha...geisha' from morning till night time. Makes me think... should i go become a geisha in Japan since I still can't decide what to study? Good idea? Yes? No? Perhaps it's quite a cool idea... but i should dye my hair black first coz geishas do not have light-brown coloured hair! Hah. I guess i'm feeling kinda lame at the moment, so please bear with me. >.<
Did i just mention about how nice the newly-renovated swimming pool at rjcc is? Yup. It's NICE. At least it's NICER than its previous condition. The baby pool or the children's pool has TWO slides now. I wanna go try the slides when nobody's looking coz it's kinda childish. Hehe. It's nice at night, especially in the late evening. =) No point talking so much about the pool when i have beautiful photos of it rite?
The night view.
Behind the big pool is the children's pool with two slides.
On a much heavier note, the release of the A2 Cambridge International Examination results will be out tomorrow morning!!! Nervous.Scared.Excited.In denial. >.< Pray for me!! I seriously hope to get better results this time. God bless me.
I wanna hear this letter from my head of programme tomorrow.
Nothing is impossible. Be it good or bad. I do believe in miracles!
*prays silently*
Feelings
Feels like i'm wasting my life away. Been going through thousands and thousands (let me exaggerate, can?) of feelings everyday. Sometimes i'll feel irritated (mostly by my brother), sometimes i'll feel happy (mostly by the tv programmes), sometimes i'll feel relaxed, sometimes i'll feel
TOO relaxed (this happens ok), sometimes i'll feel bored (this happens most of the time), sometimes i'll feel angry at myself, sometimes i'll feel amused, sometimes i'll feel sad, sometimes i'll feel crazy, and the list goes on and on...
AND on...
-_-
Perhaps the main reason why i'm having assorted feelings in one day is due to the fact that i'm STILL rotting and slacking at home with literally nothing to do. >.< I guess i've already rotted HALF my ass off. It's only a matter of time when i'll slack the other half of my ass off. You guys get it? GOOD.
On a happier note, my baby turned
TWENTY last wednesday!!! Hehehe! Gosh, he's SO old. =P I'm still 19 !! WHEE!!! =P Listen here baby, you're 20, means you're no longer a teenager which means you've just stepped into the adults' world.
*gasp* Anyway, just wanna wish you
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY here on my blog although it's very very belated. Hehe!
Guess what I got for him as a birthday present? LOL. You guys will never guess it right. Hahaha. I sponsored his haircut at a hair salon where I coloured my hair at the same time. XD Isn't this a very creative present? hehe. Oh yeah, on the night one day after his birthday, I treated him to a slice of Irish Cream mudpie at NYDC @ holland village. We had dinner at Crystal Jade La Mien Xiao Long Bao. XD I love S'pore becoz of the good food there. Yummy yum yum!
Talking about photos, we were so engrossed with the good food and the good ambience around us until we forgot to snap a photo that night. What a pity! Anyhow, we (actually he) managed to snap some photos together at the hair salon. Haha.
Isn't my baby handsome? =)
P.S. : The newly-renovated swimming pool at rjcc is nice! Can't wait to go swimming again man...hehe.
A COLOURFUL DAY
I've DYED my NOT-SO-BLACK hair. Yay!!! Asked for a trim too. Hehe. Bargained with the hairstylist. XD Went to one of the hair salons at Holiday Plaza with Irwin darling, and his S'porean friend, Wilson. They had their haircuts there. Hehe. Too many hair salons at Holiday Plaza until I can't even make up my mind on which one to enter. o.O Some were extremely expensive where colouring can cost you RM180 or more. Some were quite cheap where colouring PLUS highlighting can cost only RM96. Heh. In the end, i went for the brand. A good brand of coz. Chose a hair salon where they use
Loreal Professional.
*winks*I go for
quality, not quantity. Hah. =P
This
was me with my natural not-so-black hair.
Me deciding on which colour to dye my hair.
TAAAA DAAAHHH!!!! My new hair colour!
*dun puke ok*
My light-brown hair colour. Nice?
A close-up. Not really obvious in this case. Haha.
Guess i'm gonna have this light-brown hair for more than half a year from now on. Use colour shampoo then the colour will be nicer and will last longer. Heh. Wonder when i will see my natural not-so-black hair again. For those of you who are still kept in the dark, it's only
2 MORE FREAKING WEEKS to the
LUNAR NEW YEAR. Bleh.5 more days before i get to know about my unofficial A-level results.
*faints*
Ministry of Sound rawks!!WOO HOO! Finally i've stepped into MoS at Clarke Quay!!!! =DIt was worth all the anticipation. =)
It's a GREAT place to hang out/club i must say. Got 4 different types of rooms where they have different types of music in each room. Superb. Damn cool. We had a sofa bed as we were all tired after all the dancing. 3 of us. Me, Shen Jean and her friend, Vannesa. =) I like the white room very much!!! Very stylish! Oh yah, many many expensive sport cars were parked outside MoS. Talking about being super-rich in S'pore huh. Lots of ang-mohs. Lots of good-looking people. All the ladies dress to kill. Haahahaha. I'm starting to enjoy more being a lady nowadays as there's always
ladies' night.
*evil grins*4 different types of music:
electro, hip-hop/house, funky beats, R&B, disco and soulful house. The DJs there are all ang-mohs. Hehe. Cool. =) They were seriously good. The whole ambience was fantastically great. Whee!!! Loved the atmosphere there. Teeheehee. Was dancing with high heels last night but it wasn't comfortable as they were not mine. Haha. The people there can really dance man. All the sexy moves..... whoaaa... =P
Luckily i went to MoS last night as it was really an eye-opener for me. The first MoS in Asia as this club is originated from London. Talking about
world-quality music man.
*winks*I'm speechless now coz MoS is simply heavenly. =P Haha. Full of praises for MoS it seems but there's a bad thing about it - NO FREE FLOW OF HOUSEPOUR AT MoS ! How sad right? >.< The drinks there are very expensive... haha. In a way, it's good coz nobody can get drunk unless you're super-expensive and got lots of money to waste. Gonna try Zouk the next time i go clubbing. Heard that there's free flow of housepour for ladies on ladies night. =P
One last word to describe MoS -
HEAVENLY.Enough said. Time for me to rest. Hehehe.
Grant me any of my wishes.How i wish...I can not decide on my future.I can not choose what I want to do.I can not be this 'sesat' or 'lost'.I can be more decisive.I can quickly make up my mind.I know where i'll be going.I know what i really wanna pursue.I know myself a bit more better.I dunno myself at all.I'm more prepared for the real world outside there.Alright. Seems like i'm trying to escape from reality once again. Sigh. What a bad sign. Went to
TheStar Education Fair at the
Kuala Lumpur Convention Centre (KLCC) with mummy yesterday. It was huge. It was crowded. It was packed with thousands and thousands of people. No familiar faces though. Hah. People who have completed their SPM or O-level or STPM or UEC or A-level or SAM or AUSMAT or CPU are all there. As for me, i've collected A LOT of rubbish. Ok lar, it's not exactly rubbish
per se, some were really useless info coz i'm not INTO science lar! Why give me medicine, dentistry or pharmacy brochures? I'm also not INTO business or accounting or marketing. To me, a business degree is TOO general. Everyone's got a business degree, what else can be more boring than this?
Oh yah, one more interesting thing that happened to me at the education fair was that the education counsellors from their respective colleges/Unis kept on thinking that I'm only a SPM graduate. o.O Good news lar.... coz i look young enough. Hah. =P Next time i should just stick a banner saying "A-level graduate" on my forehead. Hah.
So yup. I've decided. Either i'll do law or mass communications. Enough said. But then again, i've NOT YET decided on WHICH ONE i'm really gonna pursue. >.< I hate making decisions. I suck at it. Even my parents are already starting to worry about my future as their beloved second daughter is still 'sesat' or 'lost'. I'm forever at a loss when it comes to decision-making on my own future. Let me introduce myself, i'm the 'lost' yina a.k.a 'sesat' yina.
*claps own hands*Raining so heavily outside since this morning. Wonder what's wrong with the weather nowadays. Cannot teach swimming. Cannot go swimming. =( I hate crazy weather!!
That's all for now. I still feel tired after the super-long train ride. I hate taking trains! ARGH. It's time for me to rest my mind for a while...
to be continued . . .
I need motivation to wake up early.Went to the newly-opened
Jusco Tebrau City at
Desa Tebrau today. My mum woke me up at 9 freaking a.m. o.O She was already shouting :
"YINA, GET UP LAR!!! I WANNA GO TO THE NEW JUSCO TODAY COZ I'M VERY FREE!!" -_- So yeah, within a minute, i was already wide awake. Amazing. What a miracle huh? My mum can create thousands of miracles at home, mind you. It's interesting to know that shopping can actually motivate me to wake up EARLY.
Wow.
So bring me to any NICE and BIG shopping centres worldwide and i'm able to OPEN my eyes immediately after a good night's sleep. Shopping is my motivation so far... to get me awake that is. XD
We went at 9.45am... and came back at 3pm. It is a really nice place to shop and window-shop. Hah. There's lots of
NICE and INTERESTING and UNIQUE and FUNNY clothes at the jusco ladies' department. SUPER GIGANTIC JUSCO STORE. It's the largest jusco in South East Asia!!
*opens big mouth*There are 3 floors :
Ground floor - Also known as the International Floor where there are international brands such as
MNG, Naf Naf, La Senza, TopShop, Guess, Calvin Klein Jeans, Hush Puppies, G2000, U2, Topman, Espirit, Levi's, Quiksilver, Roxy, British India, and many more. Oh yah, not forgetting there's a HUGE bookshop by the name of HARRIS which is controlled by Popular Bookstore. It's something like Kinokuniya. Heh.
1st Floor - Also known as the Family Floor where there are all sorts of shops ( besides clothings) ranging from cellphones to electrical items to bed linens. A LOT OF SHOPS lar. Lazy to name them. =P
2nd Floor ( also the highest floor ) - It is known as the Entertainment and Dining Floor. Got redbox (!!), cinema (wow!), and many many nice restaurants and cafes. The secret recipe shop is damn big man! XD
Alrite. That basically sums up the whole of Jusco Tebrau City. XD I wanna go there again!! ASAP! I so wanna buy that Somerset Bay short jacket with fur!!! SO NICE!!! And a lot more of other things!!! NEW YEAR CLOTHES!! XD
Din buy much today coz mummy said she plans to go there again. SOON! haha. Bought bedsheet from Aussino, a pillow (RM1 only ok!) from Aussino, and 2 laundry bags ( also from Aussino! ). haha. Aussino bedsheets are very nice! =) Then, i bought a pair of cotton capri pants from the Jusco ladies' department. Dark brown. Nice!
*whee*I really wanna go on a shopping spree ASAP! Can't wait to spend money! hahaha.
Give me money, somebody, anybody will do!
An important announcement to be made.It's the new year and i actually forgot to do something very very important!
Oopsie!
*smacks own forehead*I forgot to wish the world a
HAPPY NEW YEAR. I can't believe i'm this
blur man. Yikes!
So... before i forget (wanna play safe this time), i would like to wish everyone, young and old, boys and gals, and those who feel like a human or think he or she is one, a very
HAPPY NEW YEAR!! HAPPY 2006 to all!! =)*beams*Alrite, i gotta get back to my MSN chatting session now. Hehe.
Once again, happy new year people! Thank God it's still early for me to wish. Phew!
*wipes cold sweat*
HELLO 2006!! Can u hear me?!Yup. A brand new sparkling year had just started. 2006. Thousands and thousands of people were busy sending and receiving new year wishes and greetings during the last 48 hours. Talking about the spirit of new year man. Hmm. Anyway, i just hope that i could get good results (prays hard) in my A-level this year.
OHMYGOD.Spent the last few hours of 2005 in 33's house. Oh my gosh, you should just take a look at her house man...damn freaking nice!!! It's a very modern style of urban living, thus her house was tastefully designed. Nice! Sorry...no pics. Haha.
5 of us (including 33 herself) spent our last few hours of 2005 together in her house. The 5 of us included 33, wee ping, wei jian, cheng hwa, and the blogger herself. Had lotsa fun. Did the usual stuff we always do when we get together... talked, crapped, joked like there's no tomorrow. Whee! XD Watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose, one of them brought the VCD. By the time we finished watching that movie, it was already 2.30am. We played cards after that. Played bridge, 'chor dai di', 'wu gui', 'diao yu'.
Damn addicted to bridge and 'chor dai di' man. Haha. Played until we were all bored of it and it was already 6 something in the morning. Haha. Then we couldn't take it anymore and slept from 7am till 10.30am. Had nice tim sum for our brunch. And i spent my time rotting at her house until my parents finally came to pick me up. Overall, it was a great time together. Cheers to you people! XD
*puts on a big wide smile on her face*By the way, did i mention that i'm
very, very, very tired ?! I'm sleep deprived. Desperately need to sleep. But hell no... i was forced to wake up early this morning coz i gotta go teach swimming! o.O Anyways, i love sleeping so much that i don't mind if i look/feel like a pig. Haha. Let me reveal a little secret of mine : I worship the Sleeping-God, mind you.
*grins**off to bed at 1.15pm*P.S.: 'chor dai di' is some card game. Damn addictive, at least to me lar. =P I dunno what it means though. Heh. It's in some dialect i guess. Don't ask me.
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